We are an earthen vessel, easily damaged, easily broken, and sometimes easily thrown away by those that were supposed to love us most.
There are times our damage, our brokenness comes from our own failings, our missteps, and we allow condemnation to keep us broken and dysfunctional. Other times the damage comes from things out of our control; however if you are anything like me you still think we should have been able to stop it, or fix it, or change it, and we still sit under condemnation because we only see our shortcomings, our failures, our brokenness and not the one that hurt us so.
I was reading this lovely blog by a Beautiful young lady the other day. She was speaking of her brokenness and how step by step, Jesus was putting her back together. And it reminded me of the Kintsugi pottery. I could see piece by piece Our Father taking each part and binding it back together and then highlighting our brokenness and his wholeness by precious gold. I love this Japanese tradition that doesn’t allow a broken thing to just be tossed out like trash. Those artists see the beauty in creation, even in the midst of destruction, they still find beauty.
They weave gold in between the cracks to highlight the scars, to bring beauty and awe to the once destroyed object.
Psalms 147:3 “He heals he brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Jesus came. He came for us. He was sent to bind up the brokenhearted and to set us free. Far too often, we are ashamed of our past our failings. I admit there are lots of things about me that I just don’t want people to know. Things I only share when necessary, but the scars can still be visible in the reaction I have to something.
Change is difficult. Healing is so difficult because usually it involves cleaning out the old wound which is painful, and letting it breath, and then packing it so that it can heal from the inside out so that infection doesn’t take over the whole body.
Just when we think we’ve healed from a hurt, something comes up and we doubt ourselves because we are still affected by a word, a look, a slight. But I see it like this.
I walk through a valley. Valleys are wide when you are far from the mountains and we can carry lots of bags with us. Perhaps even multiple bags from years of brokenness of the same hurt. We lay some of the burden down, Jesus takes it and we walk on. As we near the mountain, the valley becomes less wide. I can’t drag as many bags through, they keep getting snagged on rocks. I recognize I still hurt over that issue. I give it to Jesus. He takes it, we move on. Did I not heal the first time? Did I take the burden back? Sometimes yes, most times no, it’s a new level of healing. Our Father loves us so much that he is so patient with us. He knows wounds do not heal overnight, they take time, they have to heal layer by layer, and sometimes they have to be cut open a little more to make proper room to heal.
He is ever at our side, binding our hearts back together bit by bit, sliver by sliver, and then covering that with precious gold. The gold brings honor to where condemnation once sat. Makes beautiful what was once so horrendous we weren’t sure we would ever truly recover.
His love for us is so real and massive right now I can’t even find the words to say what I want to say about that. I am again filled with awe at what a wonder savior Jesus is. I am dumbstruck at a Father that would move heaven and earth for me, send His son to die in my place, to be broken and destroyed to pay my debts and the debts of those that I hurt, or that hurt me. And then would raise up His son so that we could be a part of the fellowship again.
I am amazed that His grace abounds to us in such a measure, favor that we don’t deserve, peace we haven’t earned. And the gift of the friendship and companionship of Holy Spirit. He is ever with us. guiding, loving and holding us.
He gives us beauty for ashes, he redeems us. He calls out to us like when he sent Hosea to bring his wife home telling us, no matter what you’ve done, or what’s been done. He is quick to welcome us back home. He sanctifies us for Him and His purpose. He uses those scars that he has glorified with his Blood and gold from the refiner’s fire to draw others home.
Never think for one moment that anything you have done or gone through is a wasted step or opportunity. He is the Great Redeemer for a reason, and even if we were out of step, even if it was our fault, even if it was something so heinous that it breaks our hearts, He is the one holding us together patiently, painstakingly binding us and setting us free.
YOU ARE FREE. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND YOU ARE FREE.
Love you, may the peace of the Lord that passes all understanding sing to your heart today, His song of love.
I am sure that I didn’t post these pictures where you can see the person that actually took them, sorry I am still learning. These images are from a google search of Kintsugi. There are so many examples of this art form.